"I've been letting my mind wonder at night. My thoughts should have a curfew." Am Kidd

Friday, March 4, 2011

A treasure in the attic

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Days are flying by, scattering all around like multi-colored glass beads slipping off a string.  I hurry about and try to catch them but I like the sound they make, so I stop a while just to hear them fall...


March has arrived. We are bracing ourselves to face it's typical unpredictable character. Anything can happen in March. Mild days...one last Winter storm (hopefully not!)

My  daughter and I have been busy trying to get the house ready for Spring. We've made numerous trips to the local charity shop, this time not to shop but to donate :0) It was during one of the "sorting through" that she found something she had written while at the University.  A free style exercise for her English class.  They were asked to write about anything, non-stop for five minutes without paying attention to grammar or spelling. She handed me the paper and with the typical carefree spirit of the very young said: "Not sure if you'd like to keep this." This is what she wrote:


"Mom, I see you in the shaded garden holding a glass of white wine. You’re wearing a t-shirt and sweat pants but your hair and makeup are immaculate and flawless. I see your face genuinely light up as you stand to hug and kiss me.

Under the afternoon’s dying sun I see your hair turn different colors: brown, caramel, amber. I feel the love as you embrace me and your hair smells like a blend of vanilla and roses. You smile as you ask me to sit on the swing with you so we can talk. As you go on about the squirrels and the beautiful birds you’ve come across today, I see so much of myself in your face!

Your olive skin and wide brown eyes, your curly hair gracefully touching your shoulders. I see a young child hidden inside a woman’s body. How could it be that at your age you still love and get so thrilled about fairies, dolls, and critters so much? We are so different in this sense, and yet, it is something I’ll never forget about you. I think this is precisely why you were never just my mother when I was a child, you were my best friend.

As we sit here on this beautiful golden Autumn afternoon I still see my best friend in the whole entire world, and I smile as you ramble on telling me about the most incredible fairy door you’ve just bought for the garden…"

Do I want to keep it?! Only a girl who never had a child could ask that question :0)  It's funny how sometimes we go through the motions, we follow routines which, while they make us feel anchored, could become too familiar, almost boring. One longs for a "shaking" some excitement, some awakening from the everyday slumber. Well, I'm awake now :0) It's touching to know that in spite of the routine and noneventful sailing, I was "interesting enough" to be the subject in my daughter's English lesson.

There was a lot of old, dusty, useless things in our attic, but amidst the mess and disarray I found a treasure I'll cherish forever.

Before I go, I want to thank those who left understanding and supportive comments on my last Post. Nice to know I'm not alone in this experience :0)

Hugs and wishes for a fabulous weekend.  Be happy! 

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Every now and then...

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"Just once or twice there's a feeling of something
Not yet done with, an intensity that remains..."
(Greg Hill)

I'd like to share something that happened this weekend. Georgina, my friend, is a lovely lady who usually gives the impression of being a "bit dreamy and spacey."  She had not been over for a long time thus she was eager to see our basement remodel.  I was showing her around when she suddenly said: "I don't want to scare you, but there's someone here." I should have been puzzled but I wasn't, for some reason Georgina's words made sense. They were a confirmation to certain feelings and unexplained sensations.

Only in this house have I felt as if someone was standing behind me. Only in this house have I heard doors closing by themselves. Only in this house I've felt strangely uneasy. My daughter also feels this way and she refuses to stay here alone at night.

It all started right after we moved. A strange incident here, another one there. I became curious as to the history of the house and talked to the oldest neighbor, Rita, who told me the previous owner was very sick and had actually died here. She did not ridicule my uneasiness and reassured me if what I felt was indeed his  ghost, I had nothing to worry about because "he really was a nice man." 

Moving was totally out of  the question so I learned to cope and tried to ignore the feelings with one mission in mind: spread good, positive vibes and hope that whoever or whatever was here would realize we meant no harm. After a while all activity stopped. I was able to do the dishes without that odd feeling of having someone be right behind me, and I even felt comfortable to roam about after everyone was asleep. My daughter's fears subsided, though not completely.

Lately, the calm has been disrupted when Abby has jumped out of my arms barking frantically, hairs on her neck and back standing up, growling and looking intensely at an empty corner in the room. This behaviour is strange, she is a loving, sweet, and extremely friendly puppy. Whatever she sees makes her very anxious and upset and while I can't see it, I know it's quite real to her. I was glad when my husband could witness one of these incidents. However, he insisted she might have heard a noise (we both know there was none)

Whatever the reason, and at the risk of sounding superstitious, ridiculous, or foolish I know we share our home with something or someone. I can't explain it logically nor prove it, nevertheless, it's as real to me as the sunshine on my window.

Life must go on, it's business as usual. Today I went and bought fresh flowers, played soft music, and baked blueberry muffins.  Surrounding our home with beauty, peace, and harmony is the only way I can feel safe and be at ease.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Valentine Dreaming

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It's a cloudy, windy day. The snow is quickly melting and every bend and turn is a muddy mess.  I am counting the days till we are able to return to the Purple Caravan (54 to be exact :0) I've been pouring over color charts and magazines for inspiration. There are many, but few can compare to Magnolia Pearl's!


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I LOVE their EVERYTHING!

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So, as the snow melts I keep busy, while my dear, sweet Abby patiently waits and looks out the window...


 Happy Valentine's Day!

 

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

By the kitchen sink

"Let us dream of evanescence, and linger in the beautiful foolishness of things"
 Kakuzo Okakura


After a series of relatively mild days Winter has returned with a vengeance. Unable to go for walks, I roam aimlessly around the house basking in it's warmth, grateful for it's comfort.

I stop by the kitchen sink and watch the morning light play shimmering games upon the tiny leaves of the Angel Tears vine.  The serene expression of my fairy friend fills me with peace. Outside, the icy wind roars while I linger and dream...


Thursday, February 3, 2011

Butterfly dreams

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I set out amidst the falling snow...
A longing, restless spirit...
I close my eyes for a second and ...

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What's that I see? Could it be fluttering wings amongst the ice?
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Yes! They are!!
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First just one, then two, three,  four...
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I go up suspended by feathers and wings...
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The butterflies take me to a field full of color and magic...
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We spend the day, then share some tea...

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We read some poetry...
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Try new makeup...

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Evening falls and the butterflies must go back to their Magic Kingdom...
I watch them leave but I'm not sad...
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For tonight I'll dream...

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Good night and may you also have Butterfly Dreams... XO

Friday, January 28, 2011

Immortality

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"There is a certain part of all of us that lives outside of time. Perhaps we become aware of our age only at exceptional moments and most of the time we are ageless."
( Milan Kundera, Immortality)

Sending you hugs and wishes for an "ageless" weekend...